Childhood Frightenment

My main fear as a child was certainly one of insecurity. It was pretty much a fear of robbers, murderers, or my step-mom coming through my window. It was pretty traumatizing to me, to the point where I refused to sleep with my window open or my blinds up. I suppose it was pretty childish of me to think that my step-mother would come all the way from my father's house in Indiana to my mother's in Kentucky in the middle of the night, but the way she treated me lead me to believe she hated me, and I believed she would have the will to come through my window and even kill me.

I also remember my sister always wanting to sleep in the same room as me (for the exact same reason I would find out later in my childhood). I was cool with that though because I was scared too.

As I am writing this I'm thinking that most children would have much different fears like monsters and ghosts and things, but I suppose my exposure to violent movies and my awful step-mom would have something to do with that. Needless to say, I was very frightened of these intruders coming through my open window for about four or five years, and I guess I thought that not being able to see them would keep them from getting in, haha.

(This sort of sounds like an add-on to my divorce blog doesn't it?)

Dakota